Hello bloggers :) Wow, there is so much to catch up on! First thing is first... I recently moved to San Diego, Ca. It's been about a month and a half since the move, however much I do miss my family God has been with me every step of the way. He's allowed me to see my family 2 times in just under 2 months, which has made my life so much better! lol He provided an amazing place to live and has surrounded me with some great great people. I never knew that God could teach me so much in so little time... but then again, God doesn't go by time. ;) (another important lesson to learn)
It's been amazing to see the doors that God has been opening...and if I could be honest, the whole process has been a bit scary. You see, I've always been a sort of "behind the scenes" type of girl. I like it! I love it! I do it well! It's comfortable for me :) ...which is the problem I'm finding out. I'm the girl who gets the work done and dreams of what could be and will be one day ... "when the time is just right and everything is in place". However God has been teaching me something that somehow I thought I knew but I really had no clue about. This whole idea of "when the time is just right and everything is in place" doesn't exist! It really doesnt! The thing is that God has been asking me to do some things that is going to require me to step WAAAAY out of my comfort zone. Really...He didn't even ease it on me...just plain out of my comfort zone. Things that I knew one day would come but have always been afraid of. (yes, I have fears) haha! I'm sharing this with you because I know I'm not the only one out there that feels this way. Especially as a woman. I believe with all my heart like never before that there are so many young ladies out there that are ready to do something for God. There are so many of you out there that are ready to be the change! To make an impact on this world but for some reason we have gone into hiding. We have stepped back instead of stepping forward. And to be honest I'm not sure why. Maybe you don't feel qualified, maybe your ideas were shot down at one time, maybe your past is holding you down. I've had all these same thoughts in the past couple of months...let me tell you! The enemy has been throwing every thought possible into my mind. There are things that have been put in my path in the past couple of months that honestly could be handled by someone else who is more qualified and plainly someone who knows what they are doing lol but God has been reminding me that He does not call the qualified...he qualifies the called. Let's be honest, we're never going to have it together. We're never going to know how to do it just right... so why should we wait around for that moment when God is asking us to step up now! There are so many of us who have these dreams...these amazing dreams of something big and we are hiding them! We put them away for someone else to do. My question is why not you? Why not me?
The truth is that I will never be able to fulfill what God has promised me and has called me to do. Not on my own. Anything that happens... I KNOW it will only be by God's grace and mercy. I could never do this on my own. But I do know the calling on my life will never die and I'm choosing to step out and take the challenge that God is putting in front of me. Despite all my doubts and fears, God has been confirming every step of my journey. In the past month and a half, I have never heard the voice of God more clearly. God will always confirm the purpose of your journey. But you wont see it until you take that step of Faith...once you take that step, God opens up His world to you.
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking. -Marianne Williamson
"Then I heard the Lord asking, “Whom should I send as a messenger to this people? Who will go for us?” I said, “Here I am. Send me.” - Isaiah 6:8
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