Something NEW...

So... something very interesting has been happening to me for the past couple of months. Something that I never thought I would experience. Something so unknown to me, it has shaken me. I have not even been able to figure out if it's a good thing or a bad thing ... let's just say it has thrown me for a ride. Have you ever been to an amusement park where there is just this one ride? This ONE ride that it seems that everyone has experienced but you just can't get yourself to try it. You stare and every visit to that park you secretly dare yourself to try but when the time comes you back off. You stand there as all your friends get on and are begging you to join them... you look up and you say to yourself ... "one day, I will be brave enough to take this challenge!" When? You ask yourself; that's unknown. Well, we can completely take that scenario and place it our lives. As I have been experiencing this bittersweet moments in my life, I have been asking myself and asking God mostly what is the purpose of this? So many times I have taken caution to avoid this and yet I find myself in the exact situation I was trying to get away from. Spinning around and around in my heart was the only question that I had not asked God in a long time... Why would you let me experience THIS? Never had I thought I would have this story. Then God started taking me back to everything that I have ever taught others and everything that He has allowed me to learn. He began to show me my past and a timeline of my life through His eyes... I then realized that what I have been experiencing was not necessarily for me. I am always asking myself "what can I learn from this?" Except this time it was different... I had learned this lesson long ago, making it easy for me to avoid this situation. However, God spoke this to me as sort of a declaration to my present situation;

Sometimes God will allow you to go through situations so you can step into someone else's shoes for a while... seeing through the world of others can change your life. Embrace what God wants you to experience and remember that what you get out of it is more than just for you.

Everyday is a new chance for God to teach us something new. But so many times we are too busy trying to figure it out ourselves we forget to ask Him what it is He is trying to teach us. He will answer you, all you need to do is ask.

Psalm 139 (New International Version)

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

¹ O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

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